SHE SPEAKS HER PIECE.

Stupidity comes in all kinds of shapes.

2012-01-18T16:41:00.005+08:00

Bitter. Bitter bitter. It's always bitter to stay awake alone after midnight. And now, it's almost 4 in the morning and I'm still here. Feeling. BITTER.

I am more emotional than I usually am now although I've always been an emosaurus. My well of patience seems to dry up pretty quick recently. Some people say, that's not even a well. HAHA. In another way it reads, don't try to communicate with me unless you want to be cruelly murdered.

Everything that happens around me just pisses me off. I'm not sure if i'm seeking for a reason to throw my tantrum at, or to submerge my frustration over not being able to be at home. AT FESTIVE SEASON. I'm actually, more to, SAD. :'(

Constantly going on facebook is not really healthy for me at this time. Reading people's statuses about them being home, eating home cooked food, meeting all family members and getting ready for CNY turns me into a green-eyed monster. I'm so so so jealous that I couldn't shake what I'm feeling off. I get upset and I just want to be alone. AND DRINK AND GET FUCKED UP. Even when I see people updating about spring cleaning. SEE HOW PATHETIC I AM. T___T

With this frustrating emotion in me, people around me have to try all kinds of ways to provoke me. DAFUQ IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE?!?! Do you know what kind of people irritates me? People who think that they're the coolest on earth and try to shove things to my face. FUCK YOU. When you're nobody to me, your words are basically nothing to me. So you think I need a change?? You go fucking change first by NOT TALKING TO ME. JESUS CHRIST.

To offend people in all kinds of way thinking that you're cool is not stylish. AT ALL. Just so you know. When people feel offended, you claimed that people don't know to take jokes? OH WOW HAHA AND KUDOS TO YOUR AWESOME JOKES. Everyone else is stupid to NOT understand you. WOW.

One more thing that gets on my nerve, people who is unexplainably selfish who does things that jeopardises others' life. And don't act like you don't know that you're doing that because you fucking do it deliberately. THIS IS SERIOUSLY UNACCEPTABLE!

Why do I discover the ugliness in people like NOW? Why do you appear to be so angelic when I first knew you? Why do you appear to be so nice when I first met you? WHY. ARGGGGGHHHHHHHHH. *pulls hair

Maybe these people help me to grow in life. But I'm not growing because I still get angry in split seconds. Le sigh. I still feel lucky to have had some awesome friends who treat me with patience nonetheless. I love all of you you and you. :)

Drop that. No more rage.

Abrupt change.

I just talked to momma. I miss home. Like, again. :'(

Life.

2011-12-29T05:12:00.001+08:00

Life is about take and give. It does not matter how much you take and give. But we know, we are always taught to give more than we take. Or if you don’t practice give more than you take, make it even. Take just as much as you give.

I’m so sick of parasites around, living in a world taking advantage of people and never know the limit. Sometimes I just couldn’t help but to ponder, how these people can be that shameless to keep taking what people NEVER even offer. Just because people are nice to you, that doesn’t give you the legal right to rob them mannerly.

It makes things less disgusting IF you admit that you’re doing it. To bald-facedly deny the truth after everyone else could see it crystal clear seriously irks me to no end. Or sometimes, hiding what’s already submerged on the surface. Like seriously, what’s the point darling? You just make the fact that you’re beating around the bush even clearer.

This post is not direct to anybody in particular HAHAHAHA but if you do feel something after you read this, make a change.

All these shameless people should just go bang wall, eat shit and rot in hell. PERIOD.

Kthxbye.

Stupid personal growth.

2011-10-29T06:19:00.008+08:00

Sitting in front of the laptop, eyes gluing on the screen, mind goes blank not having a single tad bit of idea what to write. This happens all the time. I know right, it's always easy to say that I'm busy and leaves myself a complete valid reason to not update the blog. But however busy nonetheless, there is always room to make time, it's just I'm running dry on ideas. Today, this time, now, deep inside, I just feel the need to pen down something. Just, something. Whatever thing.

Of late, I helplessly caught myself drifting in wonder, about everything, all the time. Even at work. What is wrong with me? Like, seriously. Then I realize, its my thoughts. There are so many questions running in my head, and they are all yet to be answered. Rummage through my mind and you will know that I'm mind fucked almost all time.

I think about friends, relationships, family, me myself, and mainly, life. To come to this, what is life all about? Being here in the states enables me to meet people from all walks of life, makes me realize to survive and keep up with the pace of the world, personal growth is crucial.

Every problem encountered gives you the opportunity to build your character and the tougher the problem is, the greater the potential for building the cells of spiritual muscle and moral fibre. Yet, it's easier said than done to keep this in mind. So I have to keep reminding myself, do not let positivity run on thin ice. I need to start the battle against my one and own worst enemy, me myself.

Whatever that doesn't kill you makes you stronger. It sounds so cliched but it is undeniably true. I hope I could drag myself out of difficulties every time and become tougher each time. I will ace you one day, stupid personal growth.

Reminder, you need to become the bestest version of yourself.

Life's great.

2011-10-18T02:29:00.005+08:00

When I was enjoying the chill wind tickles this morning, I caught myself questioning me myself with millions of WH questions. I don't know what but I just don't feel quite right. Something is wrong, but I find no words in naming them. As I continue to feel the wind kissing my cheeks, it somehow gives me answers to those questions. I realize, I am not myself anymore.

Sometimes, I just feel like I'm not quite here. Is it grief, regrets, or what? I can't quite put a name to it. Some part of me is currently living on a different existential planet. Thousand miles away, in a totally different realm. Part of my mind are somewhat, stolen.

I'm numbed, robot-like. Its like, the very core and essential part of me were ripped out and I'm left in a place filled with confusion. My soul is an exile of my own body and mind.

I reckon things will be alright sooner. It will.

Life's great.

Helloooo from half a globe awayyyyy.

2011-06-11T00:28:00.013+08:00

Hollaaaa. It has been like 10 days here in Williamsburg. Back to this same old place, everything smells the same, what upsets me is that the fun company that I used to hang out with are no longer here anymore. Boohoo. :(

Drop that.

Lemme story you how bad everything was before I safely arrived here. I went through storms to feel the soil here okay. LOL. Checked in at KLIA and the crew told me that I have to check out in Shanghai and recheck in because it's the policy in Pudong. My baggage cannot be sent to my final destination. I was like, WTF?!?! ARE YOU KIDDING?!? My layover time was only 1hour 35 minutes. How the hell am I going to make that through??

I insisted that I couldn't make it and that's a very big possibility of me missing my flight from Shanghai to Chicago. She called to ask her superior but to no avail. I HAVE TO FUCKING CHECK OUT MY BAGGAGE AND RECHECK IN! The best thing I could do was to request for front seat so that I could get off the aircraft quicker than others. I was so worried and I wanted to die at that moment. But everything's set, and I have to go with the flow.

THANKS GOD flight touched down in Shanghai half an hour earlier and it didn't take me that long when I was in the immigration queue. I claimed my baggage, rushed all the way to departure hall and checked myself in. I thought everything was good because at least at that moment I knew, I won't be missing my flight.

When I was checking in, the crew told me, the flight to Chicago was full and there was no seat available for me. I was stunned because I've NEVER thought of things like that to come into place. HOW THE HELL IS THAT POSSIBLE THAT YOU DON'T FUCKING GET A SEAT WHEN YOU HAVE PAID FOR YOUR AIR TICKET?!?! I questioned, and he asked me to wait for a good 10minutes and he assured me he would get me a seat. And he did.

When I went into the aircraft, I had the same seat with a gentleman. We were both having the seat 25C. T________T It took awhile for the air attendant to clear that hassle and I got my seat at last. Alhamdulilah thank you kuan yin ma.

Touched down in Chicago ON TIME. Layover was 1hour 50 minutes. And when I thought everything was cool and I'm gonna be alright, SHITS HAPPENED AGAINNN! RAWRRRRRRRR!!! This queue for immigration took me 4 hours. 4 freaking hours!! And if you do go to school, you'd know that I missed my connecting flight to Richmond. MARDERRR, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO TREAT ME LIKE THIS??? T__________T

I had to go to customer service counter to explain everything so that they could reissue me a new ticket. And they did that free of charge because it wasn't my fault to be late, it was the immigration's.

AND AFTER ALL THE SHITS THAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH, I FINALLY TOUCHED DOWN IN RICHMOND AIRPORT. Alhamdulilah thank you kuan yin ma FOR REAL!

First thing to do when I touched down was to contact momma and Eugene, they were really worried I think (I HOPE -_-) because by right, I should have arrived. After all hassles, it was alright because I reached here in one piece still. At least I got to experience gan jeung moment like that and you don't. HAHAHAHA. Okay, self comforting FAILED. T__T

Morgan was the one to collect me from the airport, sorry to keep you waiting. And thanks for waiting!!

Now I'll let the pictures do the talking of what I've been doing for the past few days. Enjoy! :))

Before that, let me introduce my housemates, Penny and Tonya. :))

If you know me well enough, you will know that this picture is a precious piece. HAHAHAHAH. That's Penny and I anyway.

Yorktown Beach with Ivory and Caren.

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Newport News Park. L to R: Yours truly, Arthur, Morgan, Shawn.

Yorktown Beach with Arthur this time. I was sleeping in this picture and they asked some random guy to take a picture of us without waking me up. -___-

Food pictures next, because I don't know what else to post HAR HAR HAR.

Salad in N.Y Deli.

Lasagna.

Nachos with white and red salsa.

To go with fajitas.

YUMMEHHHH. Mixed fajitas.

Bought this from Walmart and oven-ed it. Cheap and good. HOHO.

And lastly, a picture of yours truly. :D (Remember this face before it goes wider. HAHA)

That's it. Abrupt end. Bye! XOXO

Friendship - the only rose without a thorn.

2011-05-27T13:39:00.001+08:00

Blog has been dead since forever. I apologize. Finally, I have the space in time in updating this dead piece. Random thoughts in mind. And there is this need I feel to pen them down.

Result was out yesterday. Thankfully, I am graduating on time, without any further delay. There's no need to repeat, retake or resit. God gracious. Been longing for this day to come. Achievement of mine after 5 freaking years, at the very least. These 5 years have been really dreadful, if you asked me. Constant battles and hardships. Trials and tribulations. It has been tremendously exhausting, academic wise.

Other wise, all is good. Friends painted my life with colours. The laughters and tears that they brought are priceless. Those unforgettable memories that we created throughout these years will be kept in heart for good. Yesterday I was so emotional thinking about how I would pull through these years without them. No, I would never come to this far without them. While flashing back, it feels as though the core and some essential parts of me have been ripped out and I'm left in a place filled with all pictures of us. I know I'm gonna miss this bunch of monkeys.

Had a really good time spending a week with them in Phuket.

Getting ready to go out.

Friends, you will be missed. :')

XOXO.

If only.

2011-05-04T00:06:00.011+08:00

It HAS been awhile.

If only, every thought of mine could be understood.

If only, every efforts of mine could be paid off handsomely.

If only, every droplets of love that I poured could be appreciated.

If only, every voice in my heart could be heard.

If only, everything that I do could be seen clearly.

If only..

...I could.

I don't know how many if onlys I have to come out with to alleviate this excruciating pain. Abstract, but so overwhelmingly felt. Yes, I'm unhappy.

"And this time around, you'll be more than who you are."

I just wanna sleep, and to never wake up again.

Karma exists.

2011-04-16T01:57:00.007+08:00

My paternal granny is the person that I would pay my most respect to in my whole life. She's an angel on earth that it's near to impossible for you to find somebody as good, as kind as her. Words I know are just insufficient to describe how angelic she is. In fact, it's not even describable. I love her more than anything in this world. It still kills me over and over again when the picture of her holding my hand and suffocating for air before the dilation of her pupils strikes my mind. It's so hard to believe that she has gone and walked away from us, for good.

Sometimes, when I think of how nice she was to all of us, I would just sit down there questioning myself, why am I so lucky to have granted with such awesome granny?? BUT. SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST NOT APPRECIATIVE OF WHAT THEY HAVE/HAD.

People just took her for granted. They never appreciated her. They never even treated her with respect. I'm taught to respect the elders since I was young. But I think the statement should be amended a little. People should only respect people who are respective to others. Why would I greet an aunt who tries to cause my innocent mom to appear guilty for what she didn't even do? Why do I need to smile to bitch who mistreats my granny? Many a time, I thought to myself, what I'm doing now reflects my parents. They taught me to be good, not rude. But I just cannot find a reason to smile and greet stupid bitches when I know those harmful things that they're trying to do to me, or people around me.

(And I always believe, they try to pull me down just because I'm far far better and higher than them. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Don't be too sour sweety. I could sniff that out. :p)

People slap me with words like disrespectful, spoilt brat, impolite, rude, shallow, immodest, indecent and whatever negative adjectives you could come up with. Remember, I wasn't taught that way. I didn't wanna act that way. I would be badmouthed when I'm being disrespectful but I'd rather choose that path than to be a person clouded with hypocrisy. And I don't mind risking being gossiped by bunch of you you and you, just so you people know, that simply portrays how much I dislike all of you. If I were given a chance, I would choose to be NOT blood-tied at all with these people. Momma always say treat others good even though they don't do that in return. But, I'm not like momma, I don't have the well of patience that she has. Mine dries up easily.

Trust me. I feel embarrassed having to say this. I really do have aunt who intentionally planned something evil to put my momma in a picture frame of suspicion. Why would people do that?! WHY?! I have aunt who asked my brother to kill my cousin brother when the two kids were in a heaty fight. Why would a normal people do that?! WHY?! You should stop the fight regardless, or do whatever but to ask my brother to fucking commit a crime by killing somebody. SO WELL. YOU'RE THE GREATEST PERSON IN THE WORLD.

Whatever it is, I believe that Karma does exist.

Who knows I might be diagnosed with Alzheimer when I'm old for being disrespectful to these people? But one thing for sure, now I see that Karma happens in you, I wouldn't say that I feel glad or you deserve these shits, but just my two cents to you, BE KIND.

P/s: Ah ma, I hope that you're doing good over there. I miss you. How have you been? :'(

To think or to feel.

2011-03-29T14:44:00.004+08:00

I'm truly sorry, again. For abandoning this blog. It's not that I've been busy or what although I'm supposed to be, it's just that laziness is conquering really bad within me. I know procrastinating will be taking its toll on me when deadlines are close. There will be so much to pay, and by that time, I would be really up for Russian roulette. Nothing bothers already by then.

I practically spend my day away by gluing myself in front of the laptop reading nonsensical stuff. Anything could just be a reading material for me. That's how I waste my time. Now that finals are approaching, deadlines are nearer, I feel as though I'm being pressed upon a little by a little. I would get so emotional and cry for nothing. Like you're being hung at somewhere where you do not know what to do. Any step I wanna take feels just not right.

I messed up my routine, fucked up my studies, almost know nuts about the direction of life that I'm driving now. I just feel..., helpless. I don't know myself anymore. I do things that go against my will. I used to stand firm on ground and be very certain in principles, but now I accepted things that I couldn't before this. Sometimes, I just hate myself for not being myself anymore but I couldn't help.

To think or to feel. One who acts rationally cannot be happy, one who wants to be happy has to be irrational. I always bury myself in this lie. Tell me how to have best of both worlds? Once, a friend told me, don't make decision that you will regret after. Yet, how am I to know if that is a regrettable decision? That makes life a gamble. I somehow gambled already, I hope nothing turns out bad. Or even if it's gonna be a negative outcome, hopefully it's not a too ugly ones.

Sometimes I say things like why bother much? Life is too short to be wasted just for rational stuff. I know I sound sour because I am sour that I cannot be like some others. They are solid and certain with directions of life, they know what to do, they never hesitate. I always like to get away by equivocating, hoping no one sees through that. But, people are not that stupid, are they? Le sigh.

I'm really a fucked up bitch. What gives?

Because...

Hope it doesn't get me into deep trouble. Fingers crossed.

做到了，我嫁你。 If you could do that, I'd marry you.

2011-03-12T17:45:00.005+08:00

如果在你忙的时候

我捣乱也好

When you're busy,

you're still fine with me causing troubles around.

在你想要睡觉的时候

任性的拖你起来陪我聊天也好

When you want to sleep badly,

you'd still allow me to stubbornly insist on you talking to me.

在我明知自己讲错了一句话

都死活坚持自己是对的也好

Even when I know I said something wrong,

you wouldn't mind me persistently saying that I'm right.

你都只会笑笑的顺着我说

「是是是」和「好好好」

All that you'd do is to give me a grin wholeheartedly saying,

"Yes yes yes." and "Alright alright alright."

你可以无奈的笑

可以温柔的摸着我脑袋说

「真是拿你没办法没辙没辙的」

然后任由我抢走你的工作资料不给你看

You could smile helplessly,

and gently touch my head while telling me,

"You always make me feel completely helpless against you. It's alright."

And still permit me to grab your documents not giving it back to you.

要你陪我看电视

或是在你最困的时候

都用力的用手指撑起你睡眼惺忪的眼睛

Whenever I need your company for tv,
Or when you're really sleepy,

you wouldn't mind me aggressively using my fingers to open up your sleepy eyes.

要你陪我讲讲话

你都不会嫌我烦、嫌我讨厌

只会用指尖戳戳我

因为小小的赌气而鼓起的脸庞说

「好好好……陪你啦」

那样的话我就会乖

Whenever I need a company to talk to,

You wouldn't find me bothering or irritating,

All you'd do is telling me,

"Alright, I'll keep you accompany."

I'd be good then.

会心甘情愿的让你休息或者工作

不吵不闹然后安静围观

或许还是会不安分的在你周围上蹿下跳

还有翻椅爬桌

但是绝对不会再捣乱

因为有时候

我想要的只是你一点心甘情愿的宠溺

只要我感觉到了那份心意就会很满足了

I'd let you rest or continue with your work willingly,

Observing you with noise no more,

Or maybe restlessly messing around,

But definitely not causing any problems to you.

Because sometimes,

All I need is your sincere pamper,

As long as I feel it, I'd be really content.

你可以看穿我的逞强

你可以保护我的脆弱

You could see through my flaunted courage,
You could get all my weaknesses sheltered.

不要在我说

「没事啦！你去吧」的时候

就真的会放心的放开我手

然后留我一个人

Never walk away when I say,
"I'm fine, you could go."

leaving me alone.

不要在我笑笑的不说话的时候

就真的会以为我心里没有觉得疼痛和难过

Never assume that I'm fine,

when I'm smiling silently.

不要在我若无其事忙碌着手头事的时候

就真的会以为我什么影响都没有受到

Never take me as the strongest girl who would not be emotionally affected,

when I'm busy with stuff.

我希望你会在我的眼泪掉下以前

就用大大的手掌捂住我的眼睛

然后轻声说

你的眼睛

只有微笑的时候才是最好看

I hope you could use your palm to cover my eyes,

before my tear glen couldn't hold the pour,

and speak gently to me,

your eyes look the best when you're smiling.

我希望你会在我面无表情的时候

轻轻的用力的搂紧我

然后说

你在我的面前

永远都不需要伪装坚强

I hope you could hug me and keep me in your arms,

when my face couldn't afford to express any emotions,

and say,

there is no need to pretend to be strong in front of me.

我希望你会在我受到委屈的时候

把我的脑袋按在你的肩膀上

然后抚着我的头发说

没关系

就算所有的人都不相信你

你都还有我

I hope you could hold me tight in your arms,

when the world has a grievance against me,

and gently running your fingers through my hair telling me,

It's alright.

Even if the world doesn't have faith on you,

I still do.

我要嫁的那个人

不一定要会甜言蜜语

但是一定要有好的脾气

The one I'm going to marry,

doesn't have to possess the ability of sweet talking,

but he has to be someone with patience.

我要嫁的那个人

一定要是能和我一起到老的

能够了解我内心的坚强

不让我脆弱的不堪一击的

The one I'm going to marry,

has to grow old with me.

And could understand my strength deep within,

would never let vulnerability take place within me.

我要嫁的那个人

可能不帅

但是不会让我手足无措

甚至不知道要和他讲什么才对

The one I'm going to marry,

might not be good looking,

but would never put us in awkward situation not knowing what to talk about.

我要嫁的那个人

一定要霸道些

他会对我说

宝贝我认定你了

就赖你了

你就是我一个人的

我不许别人走近你

The one I'm going to marry,

must show a slight over lordship and tell me,

baby you're the one,

you're mine,

and no one could take you away from me.

我要嫁的那个人

一定会在过马路的时候牵着我的手

对我说

宝贝要跟我走

The one I'm going to marry,

would hold my hand when we're crossing the road and say,

baby, come with me.

我要嫁的那个人

他明白我不会轻易在别人面前哭

但是在他面前

我永远都是最爱哭的

The one I'm going to marry,

would understand that I don't cry in front of people,

unlike with him,

I'm always comfortable with shedding tears.

我要嫁的那个人

一定会在我累的时候伸出手臂

很心疼的说

宝贝抱抱

The one I'm going to marry,

would say,

let me give you a hug baby,

when I'm in need of one.

我要嫁的那个人

一定会在睡觉前跟我说

要早点睡觉

晚安

The one I'm going to marry,

would greet me good night,

every night before I sleep.

我要嫁的那个人

一定会把我带回家

对他妈说

看……

这是我给你找的儿媳妇

然后对我说

这是咱妈

The one I'm going to marry,

would bring me home,

proudly introduce me to his mom,

and say,

look,

this is your daughter-in-law,

and then turn to me and say,

that's your mom.

我要嫁的那个人

一定会在某一个阳光明媚的日子

顶着一片湛蓝的天

笑着对我说

宝贝……

我们该有个家了

The one I'm going to marry,

would tell me someday, somewhere,

baby,

it's time for us to have a family.

The secret of success.

2011-02-18T01:05:00.004+08:00

"Why are all these things bothering you?", I questioned myself, again and again. I could care less. Or I couldn't, I don't know.

I reckon, one of the chapter in life, is to learn to swallow insults that people throw onto your face. Don't take that as an insult, take that as an encouragement for you to grow, for you to learn, for you to improve.

Right at that moment, you would be really angry that you would kill anybody who comes to you. But no. That is the wrongest thing to do. Like Chinese always say, if you are patient in one moment of anger, it will escape you from hundred days of sorrow. I know, it's always easier said than done.

Or if it breaks you apart, just cry. Cry as much as you can. Let the tears pour. At the same time, keep reminding yourself, to remember how that hurts you and to never let that happen again.

Instead of questioning what have you done to deserve all bullshits from people, why don't I take the bullshits from people and learn, right?? Don't let positivity run on thin ice.

You have to live life to the fullest and to succeed in everything you do. You don't have to prove anything to people who insulted you. Success will.

Always remember, success is the sweetest revenge.

Emosaurus is back.

2011-02-11T23:31:00.004+08:00

Hey yo. Emosaurus is back.

Emotions build up within time, and it hits you when you least expect it. When I was enjoying the silence alone this afternoon in the rented, something hit me just like that. Like a subtle wake up call. Looking at my own reflection in the mirror, I felt a sudden pit of fear. I'm 23 already. But look at my achievement. NOTHING. Nothing but a good hooky player. I'm a champion when it comes to ditching classes. And that simply means, NOTHING.

Most of the people who are at my age started their career path already. It makes me feel extremely bad when people story me about how they build their career. And our difference from my observation is that, they're CERTAIN with their directions of life. And me? L.O.S.T.

Fact is that, it scares the crap outta me to realize that I'm growing up. Things became uglier when you're a grown up. Is this the REALITY that I didn't understand when I was a kid? That's probably the reason why I'm always in denial thinking that I'm STILL a kid.

Reality check. I know I'm no longer a kid. It's time to take another step into the next stage of life. But I'm walking like a baby. Every steps that I take are just baby steps. How am I to catch up with the pace if I'm going at this rate?

Life is all about making decisions. Loathe it much when it comes to decision making. I'm always indecisive. Or when I finally manage to stand firm on my own ground, all feedbacks that I get are proving me wrong. WHY? Why things as such happen? When will I make the RIGHT decision?

I drive my own life, very recklessly to some people, but its never wrong to believe the unbelievable and to dream the impossible right? I'm a coward who is too afraid to taste regrets. I never wish to say things like "I should have done that." in the future. Regret is the ugliest emotion. EVER.

I feel like part of my mind soul are somewhat, stolen. I don't know to think, I don't know what I'm writing right now. Abrupt end. Thankyouverymuch.

It has been awhile.

2011-02-10T16:16:00.005+08:00

Aloha, people. Like finally, I have the time to sit down and get this piece of dead blog updated. After such a long break from not updating the blog, surely, there are a series of events and incidences to be updated and yes, there are, but I think my ability of expressing have gotten rusty over time. I'm really sorry to have abandoned this blog just like this for about a month. Believe me, I find no room to make time. REALLY.

Oh well, time flies. Like now, I'm back from the United States already. Before I left, I was a little worried not knowing if I would pull through to be half a globe away from home. Worried if I would find my fit. And yeah, now that everything is over, and everything is back to square one. Back to having bah kut teh and dim sum as breakfast on weekends. Back to sipping tea at mamak instead of cafe. Back to waking up in the morning dreadfully to attend lectures and tutorials. Back to this scorching hot weather. Back to driving recklessly on the road. Back to speaking Manglish.

Question me not about my feelings when I first got home. Was busy that I didn't have time to value the difference. When I touched down, I was really worn out because of the long haul flight that took me about 28 hours to be home, inclusive of transiting time. It was tremendously exhausting. The only good thing was, I wasn't really jet-lagged. Maybe a little tired, but I managed to get my biological clock back in line the next day.

Didn't even have the time to unpack my stuff because the next day after I touched down, I needed to fly to Korea. All I did was picking the right clothes and pooof, I flew to Korea then. Spent about 8 days in Korea. Thanks God I came home in one piece. Or else, you would see my face on the newspaper. A young pretty lady was found frozen to death in Seoul. HAHAHAH. Okay, what I am trying to convey here is that, it was VERY VERY COLD in Korea. For a narcissist like me, I don't even fancy taking pictures anymore. Imagine how cold was that!! It's about -20 celcius. Malaysia is about 30 celcius. They both differ by 50 celcius lor. Can die dot com weather.

Ever since I came back from Korea, I didn't curse no matter how hot the weather is. You can see me sweating like after sex and still smiling. Because to me, it's really good having to be in Malaysia. I would choose to be in hot weather over cold if you ask me. If it's hot, it takes you like 15 minutes to feel comfortable after the air-cond is turned on. But if its cold, it takes you forever to feel warm. You would need to shiver for at least half an hour before you feel warm. That's the thing I despise the most.

On a totally different note, it's obvious that I've successfully pumped myself into a chubbier or you may say cuter figure. Round face, stout figure, flabby arms and fleshy thighs. I know I put on some weight when I was in the States but I DIDN'T know it was that much. A hell fucking total of 10kg!! 10kg okay!! I weighed 53.5kg when I first arrived here. Now I weigh 52kg. I hope I could shed off some kilograms by March because I wanna have nice and pretty graduation picture. T____T

My body weight has become an issue to all people. Girlfriends laughed at me for AT LEAST half an hour when we first met. Relatives claimed that my face has become rounder. Coursemates said that I've become cuter. But seriously, I didn't know I am THAT FAT when I was in the States until I came back to Malaysia. Americans are huge thats why I always think that I'm just good but le sigh, I'm Asian after all. I still need to be compared amongst Asians. So yeah, hopefully I could reduce my weight to my initial weight. God, spare me some mercy, please. T____T

Random. I've already done organizing all pictures from America. I will upload a little by a little alright. But definitely not now.

Sorry for this wordy post. Hope you enjoy reading it. :)

This is how you spell clumsy.

2010-12-27T02:14:00.003+08:00

Today is not any other day for me. First, I have both shifts off. Second, I was up at fucking 830 in the morning. It's just a perfect day for me to update my blog about my life here in America. I know I know, its coming to an end already but yeah, you have to understand me that I don't have much time to do things like that.

And now, the greatest piece of news for all is that I lost my fucking camera! It's a brand new camera. And ever since I got that camera, all of my pics that I've taken, I've never transfered them to the laptop and now I lost all of them. Now I learned a lesson. Do not be lazy to transfer the pictures that you have already taken. But the price is too much to take this time.

I got so panic and raided my whole room to find it but to no avail. I think I left it in someone's car but I've called to ask him to search through thoroughly twice and he said he couldn't find it too. Now that I feel that my life is so fucked. What am I to do now?? I need a gun. Probably.

Now that this blog will be boring without pictures but I'm really sorry I can't help. I'm positive that someone will return it to me within these few days. Yes. That's my only hope.

My first white Christmas this year. Most beautiful Christmas I would say, minus the camera lost off. Life's perfect. ALMOST.

Looks like I've not been as good as I thought because I was punished like this. But I know that god loves me. He will find a way to give my camera back to me. Yes he will. The bottle if half-full.

Ciao.

Happy Halloween!

2010-11-04T23:51:00.008+08:00

Time to update, again. When Elly and I both came here, we were so homesick and we wished we could finish everything earlier and leave this place as soon as we could. And now, we've ONLY been here for a month, we started to feel heavy for leaving already. The people and fun moments here make it really hard for us to leave.

This morning, when we were on our break, we were discussing if we should come to America again next year. To create lovely memories with new people, again. Meeting new people is really great. I would say, life here is really awesome having to meet lovely people from all around the world except the one and only pain ass obligation ie, work.

We're creating memories every day. It makes it harder to endure the departure of someone as day passes by. Freeman is leaving in about two-week time. Working life would be really different without all his stupid acts and accents. Just to let you know Freeman, you'll be missed. Truly. :)

Being here has exposed me to different kinds of people and some people really got me so speechless that I never had the slightest idea about the existence of such people. Like, really. All I wanna say to all these nuisances is, "ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!" ALL kinds of people. Like really, ALL! REALLY. Calculative, sour, bossy, picky, mean, pretentious and whatever you name it, they have it.

The bestest way to get rid of being labelled as stupid as them is TO IGNORE them. Not literally ignore, as in, do not bother explaining or suggesting something better, because no matter what you say, they're not gonna understand you. Lol. Do whatever they want you to. JUST DO WHATEVER THAT MAKES THEM HAPPY. So that you could live your life here in peace. Go with the flow, this is how you survive. AT LEAST THIS IS HOW I SURVIVE HERE.

Oh and I have rashes all over my legs. Someone please just shoot me with a gun. The itch is killing me!

End of my emo moment. Let me show you some pictures to let you know what I've been up to.

Colleagues.

Big boss, Sanders.

Tawana and Kathrina. :)

Went to New York Deli last week with the boys.

Lasagna. I'm salivating already.

Elly and Freeman. He always says that it's impossible to eat in peace when we're out with Elly because she insists to take pictures of everything. Lol. But I still heart her much. Heh.

Been to New York. Yay!

Us, in the boys' hoodies.

York Beach.

Halloween partay!

Love this pic!! <3

I've a complicated love-hate relationship with this creature above. Lol.

Happy Halloween. :)

Everyone looks drunk. Heh.

Girl and boy next door. Literally.

Hosts, Morgan, Ban and Joseph.

Elly, Joseph, me, Ban.

Lastly, wasted yours truly. Lol.

More updates to come. Have a fruitful day people! :)

Too good to be true.

2010-10-22T07:46:00.025+08:00

Girlfriends have been waiting for me to upload more about my life in America. Well, what could I say?? Life's good here so far apart from the boring daily working routine. But on the brighter note, I got to know lots of people from all over the world and this is really a fun experience.

Oh yeah, I didn't want to update so much because I do not want to bore you with the boring routine that I practise here. Also, I'm lazy. :P

Last Friday, all of us were given a day off to visit Busch Gardens, which is a theme park in Williamsburg. Our store manager gave us the complimentary tickets which saves us about $69. Everything was so good except the weather. It drizzled a little and it did affect our mood somehow. But still, we had lotsa fun!!

Worry not, pictures will be up real soon. But not that many though because I'm afraid that they might bore you to core. It's all our pictures. Difference is that, they were taken in different corners of the theme park which somehow I think, makes no difference to you viewers. In short, I just don't want to disgust you guys with those pictures. Lol.

And did I mention that I have taken up a second job in Mcdonald's too? It was pretty tiring on the first few days but I guess I'm alright now because I'm starting to cope with it already. I HAVE to cope with that. I don't wanna see myself passing out in the middle of work. Lol.

Okay sorry, I'm easily sidetracked. Here you go.

Narcissist #1. Before heading to social security office.

Too vain, sorry. Haha.

On the way.

Love interrupting like this.

Prince and Soye.

Soye and Elly.

Thanks Elly for this great picture!

Welcome.

Big Ben! Lol.

Hanging ghosts.

I was a little afraid of this.

Halloween is around the corner!

Love this picture.

Pumpkin house.

Pompeii.

My roommate's twin. Heh.

I took some kind of picture like this when I was in London. The meridian or so. Forgotten. Lol.

Feel the ohm, don't ya?

The roller coaster!!

Yummy walnut giant cookie!!

Beautiful much.

Housemates.

These kids are so cute. But why would someone pay to be drawn ugly?? LOL

Yours truly.

Is that NOT cool!

Days ago, we, as in roommates and I had fun hanging out with Morgan and Freeman, our colleagues. They brought us to Colonial Williamsburg and I enjoyed every moment of strolling in awe. The place is lovely beyond words. We went to the huge bookstore there that made me feel that I'm really cultured. Lol. I don't know to put them into words. I'll show you a couple of pictures of it later but picture definitely doesn't do it justice. You have to witness it with your naked eyes. You'll be amazed.

At night, we had buffet in Wasabi Oriental Restaurant which is just a mile stone away from where we were. Man, I miss Chinese food a lot. Not having to have my staple ever since I've been here is torturing. Lol. Then we went to their place to drink and we had soooo much fun doing stupid things!!

Elly was hammered drunk after having like maybe two shots of vodka? Oh man, but all in all, it was really awesome. I was so good ok, I wasn't TOTALLY drunk. Got a little dizzy and dozed off right after. Woke up in the middle of the night because of snores. DANG! But I slept off again within seconds. HAHA

Enough of craps, pictures time!

BR.

These guys are really fun people to hang out with!

Awesomeness!!

The hugeeeee bookstore!!!

Very good expression with that matching pair of specs, don't you think so?

This is so funny, I can't stop laughing looking at it!

Narcissist #2.

MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Looking good. HAHAHAHAHA

Finally, after so many attempts. Lousy cameraFREEman. :P

Loves. (We're so full of craps and I like it that way. Sue me!)

Candid. Love max.

Random.

Freeman said this is stupid. But it's artistic according to Morgan and it REALLY is!

Vainpot. Hoho.

I fall in love with this place again and again.

One word, beautiful.

Stupid Freeman spoiled the picture! And the construction side beside. -_-

Autumn.

This is so pretty. T_T (Know who's the photographer? Lol.)

Oh man, I miss Chinese food lots.

And these guys have never tried longan before!

They don't know whats honeydew!

BIG THANKS FOR THE MEAL AND DRINKS AND TIDBITS AND WHATEVER YOU GUYS BOUGHT US THAT NIGHT!

Initially we wanted to catch a movie there but there were not many options left so we chose to drink instead. Which was hell of a good decision to make!

Gurls. :)

Freeman and Elly.

Meet Morgan.

Cetiri of us. (That's four in Serbian btw.)

Roommate and I.

They weren't wasted, just resting I guess.

Gotta show you guys something. It's a little dirty though. Look!!

(drumrolls please)

TADAH!!!!

HHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH I know what you guys think!! These panties are new with the price tags on them OKAYY!!! (Not mine btw.)

Don't think too much. Lol.

Ok, abrupt end. Adios.

Cheerios.

America!

2010-10-09T21:45:00.008+08:00

Heyy it has been awhile since I last updated this blog. Meh. I'm sorry because I was really busy with stuff and I don't have time to write at all. So everybody, I've arrived in the States in one piece.

The people here are really nice. Mitch, my store manager picked us up from the airport and that made us save about $100++!! I can get lotsa stuff with that cash okay. Lol.

I stay in a unit with four girls and all of them are crazyy!!! Behind my house, our neighbor, all of them are even crazier!! All in all, it's really fine and great being here having to experience their culture and make new friends. :)

Work is not that tiring as I thought it would be. I'm glad that I've chosen this over housekeeping. Haha. I'm assigned to be at the register and all I have to do is to get all things memorized and that is all. First day was really a mess because I could not find where to hit all the time. But now things are getting better already. Still, I'm not as fast as others. I'll be sure to be like them in less than a week time. I just need time.

Apart from working, I think I should say something about America. The weather here is really dry and I have chapped skin on my legs. And cracked lips. :( I have to apply lotion, moisturizer and lip balm each time I go out and every night before I go to bed. Hope my skin won't deteriorate. The weather is getting colder and colder. I HATE WALKING IN COLD WEATHER! When it is windy, you will feel like you wanna die. Haha.

About the money, banknotes and coins are as troublesome. Lol. Used to find it hard to distinguish the dollar bills but now their coins, OH EM GEE! I still count like a little girl when customer hand me a couple of coins. DAMN! Quarter, dime, 5 cents and penny. I need time!! HAHA

Alright, basically that is all. I will shower you guys with pictures alright. Enjoy! :)

This is my super momma. :)

Family. My bro's not here.

The travel partner.

So bored in the plane, almost die. Haha.

Met this cute girl in Detroit airport.

Where I stay.

The neighbor.

Haha. Okay, sajer.

I wanna try!!

While waiting for Ming.

Our room. Mine is the green one!!

Kitchen.

Loo.

Shower area.

Washing machine and dryer.

Five of us. :)

Me, Ming and Ying. :)

At the pirate's cove. Haha.

Told ya, time to defy gravity!!

One last pic to end the post.

:))

Updates.

2010-10-04T03:22:00.007+08:00

Wow! It's 4th of October already. Before finals, I've been wanting this day to come so badly but now, it's here and I don't feel the hype as before already. Le sigh.

The entire month of September was really a nightmare to me. Really! If you're a follower of my twitter, you will know that I've been doing the same thing for the whole month. Wake up, eat, study, facebook HAHA, eat, study and sleep. SEE?? That's boring. Life of a lifeless person. Although I'm quite lifeless but that does not mean I have to go through life as lifeless as this right? But yea, I was THIS lifeless. T__T

Right after finals, I was extremely occupied with things to do. Took me sometime to digest the changes. Lol. On the day I finished my last paper itself, I rushed all the way back to Klang for a hairdo at Ben and Alice's salon. Alice suggested me to perm my hair. I've never tried to have locks and you know I'm the vainest people that you have ever met, I could not bear looking like a mother of two with unsuitable curls. (Yea I know my previous straight boring hair is not as nice too, but at least it's not UGLY right?)

So I took the most daring step ever. I FUCKING PERMED MY HAIR. But I was very troublesome to keep repeating what I want and don't want to Alice because I was really afraid of looking older than my actual age by A LOT. But Alice was so patient to describe to me and layan me throughout the whole process. I feel so loved. Thank you so much babe for entertaining me. :)

I don't know if my curls look nice, but please tell me it's not ugly. Also, I dared to curl it because I'm leaving to meet new people whom have never meet me and knew that I had straight hair. So I just, FUCK IT BABY NO ONE'S GONNA LAUGH. And yea, that explains the sudden locks of mine.

The next day, I went to pyramid to get all the stuff needed for my trip to the States. Bought so much and never realized it until momma told me how much I've spent. I went WTF?!?! ARE YOU SERIOUS!! I HAVEN'T BOUGHT THINGS YET! Bought a black skinny, black sneakers, a sling bag, an alibaba pants, and groceries. All costs me RM700.00!! What a spendthrift I am. Le sigh.

And mom kept asking me to get more instant noodles as though I would die of hunger and missing Asian food when I'm there. My momma's sometimes too nervous. In the end, I just got what I think I need. But things went the other way round when I packed. When I was packing, everything seemed little for me to bring over. I want to take my whole kitchen and closet there. To squeeze them into two medium luggages is ain't easy. I died for a few times because of packing already. Haih.

Oh and the other day when I wanted to go to rented to collect all my stuff because I will be away for months so I drove all the way up to KL only to realize that I left my rented's key at home. Klang home. FML or not?! Thought of so many ways to get in there, but finally uncle came to rescue with only a soft aluminium card. He's always the hero. He comes repairing every time we have something broken. His profession. So I have no worries when things in the house go cuckoo.

The next day I flew to Singapore to meet maCho. Wanna meet him for the last time before I leave. This guy is still the same. Never fail to make me laugh like an idiot all the time. He narrates good stupid stories and it's almost the same all the time, but I always buy his stories and laugh even though it's the same thing that he is repeating. Who's more idiotic now? HAHAS. Singapore is officially my second home already because when I left, I unconsciously left my heart there too. Take good care, lame boy. I'll miss you.

And girlfriends, will miss you people heaps too. :)

The boy knows that I love Nong Shim kimchi ramyum so he bought me 6 cups of them for me to bring over. And he insisted that I should get an iPod so that we could fring and heywire and skype and msn and do whatever canggih together-gether with those apple products because he has got his iPhone 4 already. -__- So he bought me one. -__- (But seriously, apple products are BERRY awesome. And user friendly. Hahas.) Thank you much.

And that's why the first thing I did when I came back home was to rearrange my food luggage. Yes I have a designated luggage JUST for food. Cup noodles need so much space so with my good stuffing skill, I simply and gently I supposed wtf stuffed everything in. Hopefully nothing changes shapes already. Gonna tell the check-in lady to put a fragile tag on the luggage. I don't want to eat crumpled cup noodles WTF. Ok, too much info already.

That is all basically. And, I'm ALMOST done packing. It's 95% almost, not 60% almost. LOL. Worn out. Continue tomorrow. Line's a bitch. I could not publish this post. Bye.

Before MIA.

2010-09-13T01:19:00.008+08:00

Before I totally go missing in action, I should really update a little bit more than usual. Now that my mind is so fucked because I'm extremely stressed out because of finals so I guess I will not come out with something nice to read on.

I might just say something offensive and stuff so I guess I'm gonna talk about myself so that no one could take offense. But if you insist that me saying things about me does offend you in a way, I'm sorry and before you proceed just click the red colored box on your top right corner. Thanks much. :)

I'm dying to spend my time doing nothing. Not literally nothing. I just want to slack, doing the things I want, no obligations, endless sleeping time, recuperative escapades, time with Eug and etc. Now since I cannot think straight I simply write down random thought of mine alright?

Itching to watch romance movies. So many of them. Thought of rewatching Ghost but I've watched it like 5 times or more? I don't know. But worth rewatching. Awesome show. :) Or not necessary romance, comedy like Forrest Gump will do good too. Anyone knows any movie as nice as this? TELL ME. T__T

Now let me tell you what movies I'm dying to watch right now.

1) 500 Days of Summer

2) Serendipity

3) The Notebook

4) A Walk To Remember

5) Tuck Everlasting

6) Ghost

7) Notting Hill

8) Ghost

9) Titanic

10) Letters To Juliet

11) When Harry Met Sally

12) Forrest Gump

13) Love Actually

14) PS I Love You

Ohhhhh! There are so many of them!! Some I've watched already, I just want to have a rewatch because I think it's worth rewatching.

Apart from movies that I want to watch, now let me tell you what have been playing in my playlist these days. The songs that I write down are my favorites. Awesome songs.

1) Lady Antebellum - American Honey

2) Augustana - Coffee and Cigarette

3) Augustana - Sweet and Low

4) Augustana - Fire

5) Augustana - Reasons

6) Colbie Cailat - Begin Again

7) Colbie Cailat - Droplets

8) Colbie Cailat - I Never Told You

9) Colbie Cailat - Oxygen

10) Kina Grannis - Valentine

11) Kina Grannis - World In Front of Me

12) Kina Grannis - In Your Arms

13) Kina Grannis - Together

14) Kina Grannis - Stars Falling Down

15) Michael Buble - Crazy Love

16) Michael Buble - Hold On

17) Michael Buble - Lost

18) Owl City - Rainbow Veins

19) Owl City - The Saltwater Room

20) Justin Bieber - Eenie Meenie MUAHAHHAHAHAHHA (Yes seriously I love this song!!)

Actually, the whole album of all the artists above are awesome. I just pick out those I like the most. The rest I still love them though. I've been yearning to read coupled with these darlings being played as background music. Half a month to go before I could enjoy life like this!! I'm gonna borrow loads of novels from the library after this dayum finals!!

Okay, that's all. Good night. :)

Such is life.

2010-09-07T18:08:00.006+08:00

Like finally, I've the time to really sit down, and breathe already. Not exaggerating even a bit. Things had gone really out of place in the past few weeks and I'm a terribly screwed up and messed up uni student.

Procrastinating is like masturbating, when you're doing it, you enjoy it and at the end of it, you know that you're screwed! I procrastinated wayyyy too much than what a uni student should. Looking at how classmates were so busy for the past few weeks I didn't even think why was I the total opposite?! I had nothing to do at all. Or was it me who made myself so free?? GOD DAMN BECAUSE I PROCRASTINATED!!!! -__-

I must learn not to do this again. LEARN LEARN LEARN YOU BITCH!

Others who were so busy could even participate in the Nehemiah Competition of building retaining walls. And won the first prize!! The first prize was RM5k!! So proud of you guys. Where's the meal that you people promised?? Heh. (Okay they didn't promise I just shamelessly said that. *cheapo)

Apart from all this stressful stuff, let me share something happy. Err.. actually nothing much. Just.. stuff about me!! Heh. I practically spend most of my time listening to all darlings that I've recently downloaded. Colbie Cailat's are major awesome. The whole album is great. Two of them!! The awesome picture comes into mind when I'm enjoying all her songs.

With her songs playing as background music, reading a romance novel, sipping on drinks that I like in my very own room not having to worry finals are drawing near and stuff, is a superb bliss. Or even better, get to do this by the beach. AWESOMENESS T____T WHEN CAN I GET TO ENJOY THIS!!!

Trust me, click on it. This song is awesome. :)

I want to have a free day where I could enjoy freedom to the maximum! To do things that I want. (FYI, I've turned into a sentimentalsaurus recently. I've no idea why at all. Hmm.) I could spend hours rocking on Augustana's or Owl City's in my room DOING NOTHING. Superrr OHMMM!!

Apart from my sentimental side, I'm also a stupid bitch who can basically laugh at anything that I see. Low laughing point. I dont understand why Eug always does not find it funny when I send him a video which I think its extremely funny for him to see!! He would give me this face ---> -___- and asks, where's the laughing point!! Kns. No sense of humor. Cheh. *does bitchy hair toss

So basically, this is my boring life. I read boring novels. I blog boring stuff. I listen to boring songs. BECAUSE I HAVE A BORING BOYFRIEND MUAHAHHAHAHAH KTHXBYE.

Abrupt end. That's all bye bye.

Oh one more thing, never will I stop my part time job to check out hot guys. My friend said, the absence of your boyfriend grows your obsession towards guys which I dont quite agree because when Eug's here, I still check out hot guys constantly MUAHAHHA. OK BYE!

1095 and still counting.

2010-08-31T00:00:00.002+08:00

Oh time flies. Why? Because it's our anniversary, again.

Sometimes I am pretty amazed by how much this guy can tolerate with someone like me for years. He has an endless well of patience. Like, really. Try jumping in and I bet you will drown yourself.

He is the one who layans to my nonsensical craps always. Although he might not have understood to what I say (I think no one could cos its something that I say wtf), he wouldn't show an uninterested face. Instead, he asks me more to let me have to chance to express myself(maybe he secretly ignores me la and can fake that he's interested summore hor wtf). He doubles up my happiness this way. :D

He's more to a choosy person than I am when it comes to food but whenever I don't want to eat something that I've ordered, he would just take my portion and generously ask me to get some other things that I want. Heh.

Whatever that I want, and if he is capable of giving, he would not be stingy to give. Except blanket wtf. I mean like, he will help to carry my handbag when we go shopping, help to do the house chores if it's my turn and I do not want to do it, do my laundry for me, and basically he runs all my errands. NOW NOT ANYMORE COS HE'S STUCK IN A RAT RACE IN SG ALREADY! T__T

Let me tell you more bout him.

Caring? Yep.

Patient? No one could ever beat him!

Romantic? Uhuk uhuk, not at all. Uhm, sometimes. But very very seldom he acts romantically.

Long-winded? Super yepp!!! Can compete with those old folks. -_-

I still love you regardless.

Wait.

I seriously do not understand how the hell did he pull through all these years with me. I must have done a lot of charity in my past life!! LOL.

I WUV YOU BABY. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY AND MANY MORE TO COME. :D

It's Wong(1) Fu(4), not Wong(3) Fu(2)!

2010-08-21T16:34:00.007+08:00

It has been a week plus since I last blogged. These days I am so busy, so occupied with stuff to do. NOT with assignments, although I have tonnes of them lining up for me but instead, I spent all my self-declared leisure watching Wong Fu videos.

My first bookmark to click when the laptop is on is not twitter, facebook, hotmail or listverse like it used to be. It's www.wongfuproductions.com now!! I'm so intoxicated already. Only god knows how many hours I spend on WF each day. To top to my craziness, I could spend hours watching the SAME video when I think that the video is really funny or they look really cute in it.

Let me tell you how serious my condition is. There was one day when I spent my afternoon walking aimlessly in a hypermarket, trying to see what groceries to get, and thinking bout WF wtf. Watching every guys that passed by, I felt a terrible sink in the heart to be a Malaysian. There went my imagination how would my life be if my grandparents ran to States in stead of here. *sighs/ But that would also mean I would not be produced because my dad wouldn't have met my mom and then the world would look less colorful without my existence. Nyehaha.

Ok, random update to let you know I'm not dying. Too busy to deal with hot stuff like WF. HAHAS

Thank you very much for reading this boring read! Bye.

Days with you here.

2010-08-13T16:41:00.001+08:00

My heart was racing when I was on the way to the aeroport for I knew I would be seeing this familiar creature again. Very very happy.

At the arrivals, I waited for like half an hour and I was desperately checking out everyone that was walking out from the gate. But I was distracted for awhile when I saw a cute angmoh came out wtf.

Then my eyes landed on this familiar face. I thought he would be extremely happy to see me waiting at the arrivals. But he met his friend on the plane so they were exchanging numbers as they were making their way out of the gate when all I wanted to do was to hug him.

He nonchalantly gave me a smile to let me know that I was noticed wtf and continued to talk to the friend after exchanging a glimpse with me. -_-

But he did give me a tight hug after the friend had left. :))

This guy has been itching for Malaysian food since he left for Singapore. So we went to Tawakal for supper. Super sinful. T__T

Deep fried fish cake.

Fried calamari.

Heavenly good hokkien beehoon mee.

The next day, we were up by noon and got ourselves ready for the busy day ahead. Before we went out, we actually finished a bowl of very yummy Nong Shim instant noodle because Eugene was afraid that I would feel unwell if I did not eat anything. I'm a gastric patient yo. Boohoo. :(

Then, we went to get our hair cut (yea I know mine looks no difference at all BLEAH -__-). Eugene was the one who wanted to cut, I sun bian only because I'm very lazy to visit any salon again.

Back to my task on that day! So yea, all I was doing that day was cramming my stomach with plenty of good food. Sinful sial.

Getting ready to go out. Stupid boyfriend with stupid grin. -_-

With good sunlight, every picture you take looks flawlessly good.

Off we went to have our lunch at Chow Kit. The boy has been craving for the chili pan mee since he left. He basically misses every scrumptious food in Malaysia. :)

Eugene's umbra fruit with sour plum juice.

My dried bean curd(?) barley ice.

The soup that comes together with the pan mee.

Spicylicious chili pan mee. You put the dried chili according to your own preference of spiciness.

Very full from the lunch. After our lunch, Eugene thought of meeting his brother up. He was in Sunway Pyramid with his friends so we picked him up from Pyramid and we headed to Snowflakes, SS15 for desserts! There are always rooms for desserts. =]

Camwhoring while waiting for him to collect our desserts.

Tofu ice series with kidney beans, pearls, black glutinous and grass jelly.

My all time favorite: Peanuts tohua with add-on pearls.

Sea amber jelly.

Walked aimlessly in Pyramid but actually we were secretly hoping by doing that all the food that we walloped before that would digest faster wtf -___-

Bbq dinner with family at BBK after!

Buahaha. All of us are crab lover!!

Before we started to eat again. -__- (Was pretty full at that moment.)

My lovely sis who did not eat really much that night. She was sick. :(

Excuse super momma's hand!

Do we look alike? ^__^

Cilaka brother.

Happy sappy. =]]

I took photo more than I ate wtf. -_-

The XXs.

I had like 5-6 of this that night! Very very nice!!

Glutton eats like this!

After dinner, we adjourned to Southern Curry House with Jean and Naomi. Jojo and Huey Yee joined us later. And its very very very late after. Punctuality Jojo!! =p

Our task of filling the stomach until it explodes resumed right after the buffet dinner. You read that right, its buffet dinner. BUFFET. WTFFF.

Roti cheese double!!

End of the night. Stomach could finally rest in peace. Heh.

The next morning, we woke up looking like two walking zombies because we slept quite late the night before. Had to make sure of everything so that Eug would not forget about his passport like me. T_T

But still..., I left my study bag at home and made a trip back to Klang on Tuesday JUST to take that bag. -_______-

Eugene has also been telling me that he misses bah kut teh a lot. So yea, bah kut teh!

Soft and tender pork bathed in hours-boiled herbal soup. Superyumss!

Steamed rice with fried onions.

Bomb of the day, seafood bah kut teh! A clay pot of huge shrimps and fake abalones bah kut teh! Extremeliciousss!!

Apart from gobbling up good food, we were also armed with a few tasks to settle. Recklessly drove to P1 in PJ so that we could reach before lunch time wtf -___-. Off to Pyramid (yea, again!) to join Jean and Naomi then.

While waiting for our waffles.

See?! After bkt, we whacked another waffle. But seriously, waffle with chocolate and peanut butter spreads is orgasmically awesome ok!!!

After waffle, I suggested to Snowy Dessert Home for desserts and yea there we went to EAT (again!!).

Eugene's. Snowy jelly watermelon and honeydew in coconut milk with crushed ice.

Mine. Mango something. Forgotten.

Naomi's. Sago in Mango with mango sorbet.

Jean's. Black glutinous.

Zits. T__T Lazyy to put on make up that day. Gomene.

Came back home. Napped for like an hour. Then off to dinner and sent baby to airport. :(

Macho man of mine.

Yours truly. :)

Srawberry smoothies which tastes like melted ice cream. Boo. :(

Veryyy diluted orange punch.

Vainpot.

Love. :)

Tenderloin with straight cut fries and snow peas.

Fish and chips.

No. The food doesn't match.

Indulge in narcissism in the loo.

Bye bye baby. :(

So there it went the three days with him. Now I'm back to my routine without you again. :(

p/s: I've no idea why all my 22nd birthday pictures in Singapore disappeared from my folder just like that. Now all the pictures I left with are the ones I posted on blog only. T________________T

Yet another outing.

2010-08-10T02:00:00.014+08:00

Initially I wanted to blog about my shabu-shabu birthday celebration with unimates because Ya Chie has been urging me to post about it, since like two weeks ago. Heh. But just now when I searched through all my picture folders, I couldnt find the editted version of it. So yea, haha. Gotta have it delayed for a little while more.

Since I could not post that, I blog about another outing alright? Last Friday, I went to Sherperdoo for dinner with the girls. We had so much fun!! And since I'm going to shower you with a lot of pictures, I will cut down on my words okay?

So here you go!

Jean took forever to doll up hence this pic.

Naomi and Jojo.

Jean, Sam, Veron.

Then this Veron ran over to the opposite direction.

Are we not lovely? Heh.

With Naomi.

A pic together.

Boo. Ahh. Bleah.

Naomi with her kiwi smoothies.

Jojo with her iced peach tea.

Jean with her hot chocolate.

Moi with my mango smoothies.

Veron with her iced mango tea.

Pierna Rojo Vivo - Marinated sexy red hot chicken thigh tagged along with a cold potato salad, papaya salsa and fresh greens.

Seafood pasta - Traditional spaghetti cooked with homemade wild cheese and seafood.

Chicken Parmigiana ala Mexicano - Breaded fresh chicken breast baked with red tomato sauce plus melted cheese with a side curly fries and fresh veges.

Zho xiao.

Decent ladies.

Berry youthful! (Except Veron -__-)

Mirror is girls' best friend.

Decent Jojo and fabulous Veron.

The girls.

Two divas. MUAHAHAHAHHA.

I'm the diva, they're my fans. Heh.

We were indecisive about to head home or to continue with our outing after Sherperdoo. After much persuasion and the childish coin tossing, the final say is to visit Neway although Jojo looked a little stressed out that night. Gomene Jojo. :((

Hokay, pictures time!

Camwhore is a must. Everywhere.

Cantikbulous.

Me and Jean and a hobbit wtf.

Friends for decades.

Nobody nobody but chiu~

We're the perfect match.

Jojo!

Veron!

Naomi!

Lao niang. LOL

Jean!

Everyone was enjoying cincai-boncaily. Look at my skeleton arm, yesh! (For the first time can so effortlessly look skinny T__T)

Lovely pic of Jojo and Naomi.

We were supposed to sing until 4am but fuck it, there was a raid and everyone was chased out of the room because MPK wanted to freaking check the rooms. Everything was really good until we knew that there was a raid. No refund. No compensation. FOL!

We should have outing as such more often before this Naomi cabut back to Singapore! Lol.

Night!

Bitch mode is ON.

2010-08-01T21:11:00.008+08:00

Finally someone has made me burst after so long of being patient. Ever since dont-know-when, I've started to be a little more patient than I used to be. Think everything from others' shoes, try not to get angry over petty matter, never be fussy like last time and all.

Everytime when someone gets on my nerve, I would try to make the anger go away, as fast as possible. Or I would selfishly think to self, why should I waste my energy fuming at something or someone who doesn't worth a penny in my life? Then I would calm down a little because I am selfish like that.

Or when I was provoked, I would take my cell and punch in Eugene's number and once he picks up my call, I would talk non stop never giving him a chance to speak a word. And I could go on for like 15 minutes. And always end up crying. Anger always always leads to tears. I'm such a loser. =[

My well of patience is drying up today. I could not take any tolerance anymore. And I don't seem to understand why would others bother to go against me secretly. Why. Why would someone want to make others' life miserable when it brings no benefit to you? Please enlighten me. Are you a psycho freak or what? Unbalanced hormone? Low self esteem? Or what? I don't get you. Make me understand you.

My younger 8-year-old sister had always pleaded for a facebook account which I don't seem to agree. First, she is so young and naive and fresh that anything could harm her without her knowing. Second, I don't want her studies to be affected because apparently her grades are deteriorating as time passes.

(But now I have no options but to get her one, the only thing I could do about this is having to control over whom she adds. Tell me that I'm optimistic. Le sigh.)

Now that you know I banned her from using it yet you secretly set up a facebook account for her and asked her to hide that from me? Hey hello bitch do you know who are you dealing with?

I seriously don't get your weird act. If you do have so much time, why don't you spend your leisure time on others like groom yourself better? You definitely need to put in more efforts. No I'm not mean, I'm just being bitchily honest. So do you love me a little more now for being truly honest?

Why do you bother declaring a war with me when you're no one to compete with me? (Unless you're competing about money. I'm a broke/poor bitch, everyone could simply win over.) When you want to initiate a fight or something, make sure you have the quality to do so. Don't come to me until you get fully prepared next time.

See you around.

Awesome 22nd.

2010-07-26T02:11:00.014+08:00

This will be a post of me in Singapore. What I was doing. Who I was with. And yea, that's all. -_- Actually on Friday night, my unimates had a big celebration for me in shabu-shabu. So, why am I not blogging bout that? Oh wait I can explain. =O

That's because I didnt put on any make up on that day thus my two sexy pimples could be obviously seen in practically every picture that I took that night. So if I were to post them up, I'd need to picasa all my blemishes off first. So yea, no shabu-shabu post for the time being. =[

Before I get to safely land in Singapore, I'd gone through so much troubles. FAR BEYOND YOUR IMAGINATION. And I really wanted to share. T__T (But more on that next time.)

So this time Naomi was in the airport with Eugene to collect me without me knowing. But she was so evil, she hid herself somewhere in the corner to see if I would hug Eugene once I saw him but HAHAHAH I didn't. I dont know why either, so don't ask. LOL

Then off we went o Geylang for the frog porridge. I had it every time I went over. Too hard to not eat.

Heavenly good Kong Po frog.

The thickness and texture of the porridge keeps you craving for more.

You rock them this way. Heaven on earth.

Garlic sweet potato leaves.

After the awesomelicious meal, we caught Inception (yes for me, the THIRD time) at Tiong Bahru Plaza at 1220am. Couldn't express how awesome that show is. Very mind fucking, but good. Even after so many times of watching it.

Mcd as supper then! It was Naomi's treat. Arigatou babe! Spicy nuggets and honey chipotle fries were good. But sinful. Bleahhh.

We were home about 4am. Once home, Eugene asked me if I want a cake on my birthday. I was like, what?! A cake at wee hour?! Crazy. So then he took out something from his closet and handed it over to me.

Surprising.

He asked me to guess what's inside. I said "Cake?".
Famous Amos. Cake. I'm so SMART.

The customized cookie. A whole piece of heart shape Famous Amos cookie. Fresh to me. (Not literally.)

Thanks much love. For the first time, he had a surprise for me without me knowing before hand. HAHAHAHA

Dozed off pretty late(?) that day. Convinced myself to wake up at 10am the next day but to no avail. And rose at 1pm. FML! Wasted half day away just like that. -_-

Eugene was even worse. He snuggled comfortably under his covers after so many of my attempts to wake him up. CILAKA BETUL. Made me go all the way to Singapore to watch him sleep wtf.

Getting all dressed up for my big day.

To dine at Astons Prime, Centrepoint.

With Alexis and Naomi.

While waiting for Yin to shop at Iora. Camwhore freak I am. -_-

Even in the loo also we camwhored wtf.

This is yours truly with her plus one.

Lexis. And Aomi. HAAAHAHAHHA

Vainpot #1. Told you I'm a camwhore bitch!

The obligatory picture of everyone's head wtf.

Naomi's; Panfried halibut with fried wedges and steamed vege.

#1.

Eugene's; Ribeye with onion rings and straight cut fries.

#2.

Alexis'; Angus Striploin with creamed broccoli and straight cut fries.

#3.

Mine; Ribeye with corn on the cob and straight cut fries.

#4.

Closer look of the medium well cooked steak.

A whole view of us. But PHAILED.

One last picture to mark the end of the dinner.

The steak wasn't as good as I thought. Not tender enough. Nothing beats San Fransisco Steakhouse's.

We didn't order any desserts in Astons Prime because there was not much options. Wanted to order the mud pie but did not at last so we resorted to Haagen Daaz' chocolate fondue!!

The same company; Naomi and Alexis.

And us. =]

The chocolate.

The hardened ice-creams.

The whole of it. With cookies, cakes, and fruits. And for toppings, we chose almond nibs!

Here we go!

See the hardened ice-cream dipped with melted chocolate topped with almond nibs in my hand? Yummylicious!!

The process. Aren't you tempted yet?

Loves. <3

And tadah!! All gone. By the way, the leftover cake was Naomi's.

End of the night with them. =]

We separated after the sinfully good fondue. Eugene and I thought it would be a good idea for us to have a stroll at Clarke Quay. A very good place for two quite souls to enjoy their company all by themselves.

Waiting for train to Clarke Quay.

And we did the touristy stuff!

Oh when we were wandering around in Plaza Singapura to wait for our dinner time, we shopped. Uhmm, maybe I was the only one doing the shopping. They were technically waiting for me outside every shops that I went in wtf. -_____-

Everything looked so fine and beautiful and you would feel unpleasantly guilty for not taking what you eye on with you wtf. But I was so determined to walk out of the shop when I eyed on a lovely bag and a pair of cream coloured suede heels. Very tempted to get them but.. NO.

Before we walked out from the building, Eugene questioned my doubts. He asked me if I REALLY don't want that bag and heels. I hesitated for a few seconds and undoubtedly turned around and squeezed myself back to the shop amongst people to grab that bag.

And it is mine now. Thanks baby. =] (Picture doesnt do it justice because it looks wayyyy nicer in real life.)

Can you say that this is not a piece of fine design? So beautiful. T__T

He's the music and I'm the lyrics. We complete each other.

Thanks for the trip, the dinner, the customized cookie, the bag and the patience that you've been having all the while. I heart you lots. <3>

A very memorable birthday I had with you.

Sexy pimples.

2010-07-19T03:42:00.005+08:00

Feel like writing. Very disappointed with my face now. Never did I feel such way before. Zits all over the face and worse is, my 22nd is coming. And I'm gonna spend it with the boyfriend.

Also, the boyfriend hasnt seen me for like a month already. The last time we met each other was on June. (That time I had a huge one on the left cheek. ONE.) Now if he sees me he would definitely jump in horror because he surely has no idea what his gf has turning into. A nasty girl. T__T

I dont want to look like a moron with disgusting pimples scattered all over my face on my birthday. At least not this birthday. Maybe the 65th or 70th. God you can take any of the 60th and above but not this one. NOT THIS ONE!!

I know I know there is this thing named concealer. But le sigh, using concealer really waste a lot of time. I dont even groom my eyebrows. (Is that not obvious to mean that my eyebrows naturally look good already?)

Dont quite use concealer. Normally BB cream is sufficient for me to look elegantly flawless but this time I've tried, several times, my zits could still be seen. Only those very tiny wan coulod be concealed. Get so frustrated everytime I look myself in the mirror. Le sigh.

Maybe it's my fault. I have unintentionally turned my biological clock upside down. I live as though I'm in the UK. I have to get it right. Yes I have to get this right within this week and all my pimples will be gone. And never come back. NEVAAA!!!

Or was it my facial cleanser that cause it all? Do I have to switch? URGHH T____T

Seriously I hope I could just post a picture of me with the terribly disgusting pimples but no... I dont have the courage to do so. Because it is too ugly that you will think its a torture to your eyes. Haihhh.

Getting really worried bout my face. Hopefully it doesnt deteriorate. What if the boyfriend couldnt find a clean spot to plant a kiss next time? Wah lao eh. T_T KEEEL ME PLEASE JUST KEEEL ME!

Look at the time now. This is my sleeping time recently. FARRRKKK!

Sliding into slumber now. Oyasumi!

I'm an intellect!

2010-07-18T15:52:00.004+08:00

Friends know that I ain't a movie fan. I don't quite go to cinema because... I don't like to watch movie? As simple as that.

But in this week itself, I have visited the cinema twice. Once for Eclipse with unimates, another one was Inception with super momma!

Eclipse is good because I love love story much. So all cuddling, snuggling, kissing, sex scene wtf and mushy stuff I love them all. C'mon don't look at me that way. Yes I love cuddling, is that against the law? I miss cuddling with the boyfriend. Boohoo! =[

Back to my movie. Watched Inception. I think it just earned the title of the most confusing movie of the decades. LOL. But as you watch, you will understand it. Very mind blowing. What an intellectual movie.

Christoper Nolan is hell of a genius. Uhm..no..I think Nolan is god!!

It would not be hard for you to understand because even a stupid me could understand that wtf.

If I could, everyone would WTF

There are still a few parts I dont understand that I need to msn my friends and ask for explanation. FML!

I so wanna rewatch it. Just date me if you have no one to date. *desperate

And I also pinky promised my sister to watch Despicable Me with her. Le sigh, she must have been very disappointed because I always forget what I have said. FHL for having me as her sister!

Chao!